Before I logged onto facebook tonight, I was going to moan about how shit my day had been, the never ending problems at work, someone else's problems that somehow have been made to be my problems, nasty people etc etc...
Before I logged onto facebook tonight, I was going to moan about how much weight I have put on and how this is such an unfair world in which some people eat everything and they don't put on weight, or how an ex should never look better than they did when they were with you because they deserve nothing but somehow they still have the looks that kill and you...just look like an average 31 year old.
Before I logged onto facebook tonight, I was going to moan about the drunken white guy who stank of alcohol was trying to make some nonsense chat with me on the bus and I ignored him and he basically visually harassed me with his eyes and I thought he was following me home when it turned out that he lived in the same block as me!
Until I logged onto facebook, all in all, today was a shit day.
After I logged onto facebook tonight, I learnt that a very old classmate from HHC died in her bed last night. Leaving behind her 2 beautiful children and her devastated husband who found her dead in the morning.
Sarah was 30 years old. She was young, healthy and normal. Just like me.
I looked up in disbelief and searched for my husband to find some comfort. And there he was in the kitchen, preparing my dinner for me. It wasn't any dinner, it was salad with lean meat, because I complained about our unhealthy lifestyle and because he wants to lose weight too.
I looked at my dogs, my 2 beautiful lovely dogs. I looked at our plants, our beautiful house, all our gadgets - new TV, new cable, new laptops and all our little toys....
Then I looked at my husband again, and he smiled at me and said dinner would be ready any time I was. Then my cousin called and said he wanted to have dinner next week because he missed me.
I asked myself again, did I have a nice day today?
Yes I did, I had a fabulous today.
So do you see a big white sheet or do you see the little black dot in the middle?
Enjoy what you have and just be happy.
Yet, I can't help but be sad, that I have to learn it in such a way.
Thank you Sarah. Thank you for teaching me that life is truly too short and you never know when it will be your last living day, so you should live it to the fullest, like there is no tomorrow. This lesson will be with me for the rest of my life, thank you.
Rest in peace, Sarah. Sleep well.
Before I logged onto facebook tonight, I was going to moan about how much weight I have put on and how this is such an unfair world in which some people eat everything and they don't put on weight, or how an ex should never look better than they did when they were with you because they deserve nothing but somehow they still have the looks that kill and you...just look like an average 31 year old.
Before I logged onto facebook tonight, I was going to moan about the drunken white guy who stank of alcohol was trying to make some nonsense chat with me on the bus and I ignored him and he basically visually harassed me with his eyes and I thought he was following me home when it turned out that he lived in the same block as me!
Until I logged onto facebook, all in all, today was a shit day.
After I logged onto facebook tonight, I learnt that a very old classmate from HHC died in her bed last night. Leaving behind her 2 beautiful children and her devastated husband who found her dead in the morning.
Sarah was 30 years old. She was young, healthy and normal. Just like me.
I looked up in disbelief and searched for my husband to find some comfort. And there he was in the kitchen, preparing my dinner for me. It wasn't any dinner, it was salad with lean meat, because I complained about our unhealthy lifestyle and because he wants to lose weight too.
I looked at my dogs, my 2 beautiful lovely dogs. I looked at our plants, our beautiful house, all our gadgets - new TV, new cable, new laptops and all our little toys....
Then I looked at my husband again, and he smiled at me and said dinner would be ready any time I was. Then my cousin called and said he wanted to have dinner next week because he missed me.
I asked myself again, did I have a nice day today?
Yes I did, I had a fabulous today.
So do you see a big white sheet or do you see the little black dot in the middle?
Enjoy what you have and just be happy.
Yet, I can't help but be sad, that I have to learn it in such a way.
Thank you Sarah. Thank you for teaching me that life is truly too short and you never know when it will be your last living day, so you should live it to the fullest, like there is no tomorrow. This lesson will be with me for the rest of my life, thank you.
Rest in peace, Sarah. Sleep well.
